All M!a

Stupid nightmares. . .

Why do people have nightmares? Why did I just have the worst possible one ever?! It makes me sick to go to bed now . . . something that most people think the is the most enjoyable part of their day! I don't know . . what to do. Daily I think about how and what time I'm going to go to bed that night. How long will I sleep? What should I leave off so I can do it when I can't? What do I tell the people around me when they ask if I went to sleep, or they wake up and see me up night after night? Good God I've done everything possible that supposidly works:

I've exercised, drank warm milk (even though I'm allergic to it), went to bed early/late, didn't take a nap in the daytime, prayed (and did every religious thing possible), etc. . .

The only thing I haven't changed is my emotions throughout the day...wonder if that has anything to do with this . . .

I just wish they would go away . . even if was just for  a day. .